I don’t have a smart phone, I don’t read newspapers, I don’t look at any online news media. This is fine when I am out of the house, I always carry a notebook (moleskine) and pen (pilot G2). But what to do in the house, in those little bits of inbetween times, waiting for dinner to cook or a bath to run; or just wanting to do something diverting for a little while. My husband has particular things he watches on youtube. I, nowadays, have wordpress blogs.
I don’t want to get overwhelmed with too many blogs coming into my inbox, or end up spending too much time on the internet, so I am very discerning about who I follow. I have got it down to a few that are all different and that I have chosen for different reasons: writes beautifully about Japan, I want to go there now! Has a great bio. Describes Buddhism in action. Teaches me about India. Writes about writing. And then there are the young women who are so smart, who write so well and so openly at the same time, about a whole range of subjects, some inside my experience, some not, who are putting their observations and opinions out there for us readers and writers to experience and learn about each others lives.
So it seems like such a shame when these same smart, funny, capable individuals report their sadnesses and struggles. I want to offer unsolicited advice, words of encouragement; to be able to say something that might help.
I don’t know if that is possible though. I don’t know if when I was sad and lonely, when I couldn’t see further than the fog in front of my face, when I didn’t even know I was on a path, let alone that that path would lead me from ‘There’ to ‘Here’, when I didn’t even know that ‘Here’ existed… If someone had said to me, keep going, hang in there, it won’t always be like this, one day you’ll look back and find your life, and you, have changed beyond recognition, would it have helped?
I don’t know. But I do know that on the other side of friction and difficulty is growth, and that it’s the strange world/society/life we live in, until we break out of it, that is often the problem, rather than the sensitive, creative individual that is struggling (although it is the individual who has to change things).
Who knows what is going to be the thing to trip the switch? Meeting someone, taking up a practice, changing something, anything, that in turn triggers some kind of shift.
And in the meantime, there’s always cats!
Meet Fred (big, and extremely cuddly once he gets to know you)
and Alfie (adventurous, sits outside the house making friends with all the passers by; one little girl calls him ‘Steve’. Will sit on anybody’s lap if they sit down for two minutes).